Jitters

For the past few months, I've constantly re-vamped my work - I've been going on/off in different clinics, various schedules almost everyone is confused regarding my work schedule. They've always asked me "My bago ka na namang clinic?" I know they're confused. Me too.

Like before, I'm going through another series of changes starting next week. Today (as of this writing) is my last day here at Tokyo Healthlink in Makati. After less than 4 months of being their part-time Family Physician (from a reliever promoted to a regular physician just in the middle of June), I resigned one week ago due to personal, professional, and financial reasons.

My mother company, Health Delivery Systems Inc. recently has tied up with Philippine Long Distance Telephone Co. (PLDT) to be the third party outsource to man their different clinics in select branches. HDSI has recruited lots of specialist physicians, nurses to be assigned in different branches. I was offered this job & accepted the offer. In exchange, I had to leave Tokyo Healthlink.

Yesterday, we had our orientation regarding their electronic record system. Their system is very different, more complex in comparison to what we have in Health First. During the entire orientation, one thing was in my mind "Nosebleed ito!". There were more tabs to click, but with few available characters, more complicated steps. I got more & more confused because they have a system uniquely their own. Immediately I became worried, nervous about my performance on the first few weeks. Adapting to their system will take some time (but not too long, hopefully). Being the first doctor to "start the ball rolling" every tuesdays, punctuality is the top priority. I have to brace myself for a more toxic workload than in Health First.

After the orientation, I had many reasons to go back to HDSI Office. I signed my contract with PLDT, tried which size of long coat fits me for use at PLDT and anywhere else that is a client of HDSI (like in my case, at DMPI and Health First clinic itself), posed for a 1x1 picture & specimen signatures for our IDs at PLDT, filled an application form for an HDSI privilege card. I thought "Finally! They're starting to treat me like one of them" since I'm starting to get privileges.

However, this journey was not smooth-sailing. I went into argument with one of their HR personnel several times before; I almost thought of refusing this job completely. Since this is the beginning, taking an absence, looking for relievers is not being considered for now. I made some sacrifices, I postponed some personal matters. It was hard for me to accept at first & after crying through it, I thought that this job is the priority & it will be for my best.

But really, as early as now, I'm having jitters when I think of tuesday next week. Waah! Goodluck to me (& to all of us as well).